23 October 2012

I made my notes on Descartes and Gassendi without having a panic attack.

9 comments:

lostgander said...

Hooray!

wrenna said...

Yes! Thank you for helping me, it made a big difference. I have made a small step along the way.

lostgander said...

How was coffee/tea with C.?

lostgander said...

I was just reading an interview with Anne Carson and she said that the handwriting in Antigonick is actually that of her collaborator Robert Currie. She said he wrote the text out in pencil first and then she went over it in ink.

wrenna said...

Did you know Anne Carson is actually married to Robert Currie? I would love to read that interview. I saw Anne Carson's printing on her dissertation and it was very round, smallish, and tidy.

Talking about the difficult times makes C. sad so we tried to talk about other things. Also, she ran out of Adderall and was feeling distracted. Her dad and grandfathers were doctors. When her grandfather died he left her enough money to get through college and medical school but she blew through a bunch of it while manic so now the account is administered by her parents. She didn't want to ask for extra money. Her dad doesn't see the bipolar as an illness and thinks she is just irresponsible. Her sister makes fun of her for decisions she made while manic, like letting someone inexperienced freehand tattoo her. She has a strong social conscience and wants to help people who don't have the advantages of financially stable parents, and in spite of everything is taking four classes.

lostgander said...

I didn't know that about Carson and Curran. In the interview she refers to him as her "friend and collaborator." In general she is rather elusive, though. You can get to the full interview from here.

So do you think you two will be friends?

wrenna said...

Thanks for the link.

I hope we will be friends. What she talked about a lot was her family and the kind of empathy gap she's experienced with them, especially her father and very successful older sister. I sympathize with her, and I like that she is very sensitive. I spoke to her first and I don't think otherwise she would have talked to me. She says she's shy but once she gets going she talks and talks and people are attracted to her. Like, all the boys on our side of the philosophy class. She's like the cool girl and I don't know if I will fit into her world. I'm not as free-spirited or playful, even just with her dog.

My sister isn't open about her illness with me at all, which leaves a huge gap between us because it is such a big part of how she is. My ex-boyfriend's struggles came between us. I guess in a way it matters that I have it in me at this point in my life to care for and accept someone else who struggles. It would be nice if she'd accept but you never know what it's like on the other side.

lostgander said...

Well, I guess it's important that you made the first step to reach out to her. Maybe, as you say, it's even more important than if you actually become friends. I find that first step difficult. Also, I'm bad at following through. For example, I like my new neighbors and we talk when we run into each other and we've talked about hanging out but I haven't actually invited them over. It's like there's some kind of block. They are kind of shy, and so am I, and so is my girlfriend. So we're deadlocked, I think.

Also, I found this awesome Anne Carson video interview from 2001 when she received a Lannan Literary Award. I think you'll appreciate it.

wrenna said...

I think I may try to invite myself over to do readings on the Tuesday when I am on campus all day. Maybe after she gets her Addrall prescription filled. I don't want to give up right away thinking I am boring. I like her.

Thank you for more Anne Carson!